Archive: Feb 2016


I saw this on Facebook the other day and it has been ringing in my head ever since. Nothing much else to say about it so I will just leave it here.  

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“I will never be a well behaved woman.
I would rather pass my days lying in the middle of dirt roads, staring at the full moon with a bottle of summer red in my palms.
I would rather have kids when it suits me, not when society expects or throws shoulds.
I would rather live in a hammock on a beach for six months, and write like my soul means it.
I would rather be horribly broke at times, than married to a job because a mortgage payment has my ass on a hook.
I would rather own moments, than investments.
I would rather eat alone, than sit with women who bore me at ‘Wives’ Night.”
I would rather swim naked with bioluminescence, have it fall like fireflies from my hair, my breasts, my back.
I would rather do handstands naked in the moonlight when no one’s watching than pick bridesmaid dresses.
I would rather drink seven year old rum from a sandy bottle, smell of smoke and ash than sit in church.
I would rather learn from life than rack up debt, in a desk.
I would rather drink the ocean, again and again—celebrate being madly alive.
I would rather my love be defined by love itself, and nothing more or less.
I don’t need a ring on my finger to prove that I am in love.
I would rather take the chicken bus, than spend useless money in safe gated communities. Sit beside a goat, listen to raggaeton and eat green mango with sugar in a plastic bag sold from the woman who harasses the bus each time it stops.
I do not need a degree to prove that I am intelligent.
I do not need to own a piece of earth with some wood on top of it—to feel successful. No one truly owns the land, anyway—we just think we do.
My savings account has diddly to do with my richness.
I would rather sprawl my single ass out like a lioness each morning and enjoy each corner of my empty bed.
I will take a job I love and freedom over a pension, any day.
I will not work and work and work to live when my body is old and I am tired.
Stocks are for people who get boners from money.
Not everyone should have kids, and my eggs aren’t expiring.
I will not drink the societal Kool-Aid on a bus, nor will I drink it on a train.
Not on a plane, with a goat, in the rain, in the dark, in a tree, with a fox, in a box!
I will not jump through societies’ hoops and red tape, the treasure hunt in the rat race we chase.
If we must have milestones—mine will be measured by how much joy I have collected at the end of each day and how often in this life I have truly, deeply, opened.
Seek, see, love, do.”
by: Janne Robinson

Why I don’t feel like a fitness model anymore (or want to be called one)

It seems the industry drastically changed.  

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I remember when I started, the women around me were incredibly kind and inspiring.
Chady Dunmore, Claire Rae, and my local friends like Tannis Miller etc, A bunch of women who spoke to me when I reached out, became friends, and they inspire me to this day. So kind, cool, so amazing. True definitions of just chill amazing people- who realized that we are just fitness people working towards the same goal- inspiring others.
When I speak to athletes now it’s all about putting down other people… How many likes or followers do you have. Sponsorships (aka product in exchange for selling your soul with provocative photos to promote their product) …
I saw a guy I met a few years ago at an expo and he was so incredibly kind that I still remember vividly, thinking how nice he was. He was in South Africa recently and I saw him.. He was so cocky,rude and pretentious. I was so disappointed. This is one example of hundreds. What the hell happened to you guys. Seriously how do even have the audacity to think what you’re doing makes you famous. Insta famous isn’t a thing. People don’t pay you, you pose for hundreds of filtered/severely edited photos and people ‘like’ them. You exercise and eat healthy. Why should I admire you when you aren’t even a nice person? Because you have a nice body and sponsors and rip off other people’s diet plans and sell them as your own? Lol. No.
There are some good fitness models out there still don’t get me Wrong but the good ones are few and far between.
I just don’t feel like it’s the same anymore. It’s just so degrading. I follow fitness pages that are supposed to be motivating but all I see are ass implants and giant close ups of butts covered in “sweat” aka glycerine and water sprayed on your butt to look like sweat.
So you eat healthy. Ok cool. I’m not going to treat you like an astronaut though.
The actual term fitness model has lost all meaning.
Its about wanting attention and being extremely narcissistic and selling yourself. Its about chicken and broccoli and “gains”…
I did that already. I did that for eight+  long years. I missed birthdays. I didn’t do festivals. I was busy. I missed weddings. I did it already bro.
When I wake up my first thought isn’t food anymore or to do morning cardio. It’s usually work and sometimes food.
 I don’t have dreams about food (as often) I dream about Armin Van Buuren coming to South Africa again and then how he gives me free tickets to his show and we hang out.
I feel responsible for more chicken deaths than KFC.
I ate fish and broccoli FOR BREAKFAsT. A lot.
I hate fish. Forced myself.
I hadn’t had cake in what felt like years.
Then. I learned my body more and was able to eat a bit less crazy.
Then I studied IIFYM more.
Studied sports science. Still am.
I fucking AGED. I don’t know when it happened or who allowed this to happen but I woke up one day at 27 like..
Who the hell let this happen. I was 20 and then I blinked.  And just like that my priorities changed.  I’m focused on studying and adulting.
I chose a life I enjoy fully. I loved life then but priorities change.
 I don’t feel like a fitness model anymore because I’m a fitness expert now. I truly feel I’ve mastered my balance and I’m not actively shooting or competing but I could easily if I wanted to. And I’m going to soon.
Everyone is a fitness model now. I’m focused on being an awesome coach to people all over the world and learning more every day. How many likes or followers or “finding good lighting” and making my friends take pictures of me all day isn’t what I’m about and isn’t what I EVER was about.
So don’t call me a fitness model. That term has lost all meaning and quite frankly respect from me.
Do I regret it? Absolutely not.
Will I do it all again? Like compete?
Hell yeah. More than likely.
But for now… I’m just going to enjoy my training and eating healthy, and that’s that.

I AM.. body positive

What does it mean to be body positive?
Someone said to me that body positivity is basically fat girls loving themselves and justifying their decision to be overweight. And I have also heard that because I have what most girls would consider a “perfect body” that it’s easy for me to be body positive.
Hahaha. Ok.
Maybe for some.  But definitely not for me.
But just because I have a “fit” body means I can’t be a body positive advocate?
Pardon my French but fuck that.
I have cellulite most of the time. In fact for me to lose it I have to train really hard for an extended period of time. And actually I’m quite naturally curvy. My natural shape is an hourglass. But, just because that’s what is in style now the Kim K body doesn’t mean I don’t struggle with body issues. Maybe I wanted to be a tall slim type or something else. YOU Don’t know.
I think every woman should love the body she has and be confident that it’s all considered beautiful. No matter what your body type you too can be a body positive advocate. Just because you’re incredibly muscular or thin and have what society deems a perfect body, you have the right to call yourself beautiful. Don’t be ashamed because you have a gorgeous body. AND…. Don’t be ashamed because you don’t feel like you have a perfect body. There’s no such thing as a perfect body and I think that’s what body positivity is about. There’s no such thing. We’re all beautiful to someone and we should all focus on being beautiful to ourselves. Be proud Of what you put IN or ON your body and take care of yourself.
I think THAT is what we should all aspire to!
I eat healthy most of the time and train at least 5 days a week. I still have cellulite and big thighs but guess what. I’m strong AF! For me to get to a photo shoot weight I will have to diet hard for four weeks. It’s hard and I get cranky but that’s what I’ll have to do. I don’t want to live that way so I don’t. I choose life, happiness and healthiness. It’s not healthy to be in a calorie deficit all the time. Nor do I think it’s healthy to track calories or macros all the time.
Live your life.
Love yourself.
Treat your body right, and encourage others to do the same, and to do what’s best for them. Respect other people’s decisions and encourage each other to love themselves.
You don’t have to justify how you choose to live to anyone.
Body positivity crew HOLLA!
Sending positive vibes✌️
🦄I encourage you to create your best life through food, fitness and fun adventures!
Create a life with NO limits. 🚀
Need help❔ I’m here.

Birds of a feather..

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Who you spend time with is who you become. And getting yourself in close proximity with people that are positive, people you admire, people who are succeeding, even if you have to work for someone for free, ask them to hang out on weekends, go for coffee and bounce ideas off of them,  it is important to just get IN the environment and INVOLVED with people who are successful or people you admire.
Success to you may be different to others. I admire some women in my life because they are the most incredible mothers and wives, and that is something I admire. When I am at that place in my life, great mothers and nurturers are whom I will seek solace and advice from.  Find these people you admire, and get involved! Speak to them on Facebook, let them KNOW that they inspire you or motivate you. Their habits, their outlook on life, it will alI rub off on you… you will begin to think like they think and you will start see where the awesome opportunities for positive change are in your own life are.
You don’t like your friends and you don’t think they are your TRUE friends…why are they still in your life? Your managers? Boss? Co-workers? Don’t like them either? Well then, do you really expect your life and career to be any different from doing the same thing and being in the same situations? You keep messing with boring, unmotivated, negative, evil, and dysfunctional people and expecting positive results. We all know the definition of insanity, don’t we? Doing the same thing the same way repeatedly and expecting different results…? Well.
We have been raised in a generation of people who come up with EVERY EXCUSE in the book for EVERY single thing that is going wrong in their life.  Excuses, to be honest, only sound legit or valid to the person making them up.
For me, life is a continuous, learning journey full of highs, lows and in-betweens. I often find myself asking “Who am I becoming?”  When we spend large amounts of time with people (or things, or ideas), we should wonder about who we are becoming in this process. For me, it’s important to grow, to learn, to be kind, to be more compassionate.  My fitness/health, my career, my clients, my personal relationships, and my spiritual relationship with God, are what is most important to me. It is necessary to find people who think the same way YOU do.
Look around the room when you are out on weekends with your friends, or who you hang out with the most. With who you converse with the most. If you are the smartest one in the room, you are in the WRONG room.
If nothing around you changes, change the things that are AROUND YOU.
Sending positive vibes✌️
🦄I encourage you to create your best life through food, fitness and fun adventures!
Create a life with NO limits. 🚀
Need help❔ I’m here.